n8tivegirl

Take me to the water, to cleanse me of my sins. Take me to the water to be born again. It is through baptism that the old man dies and the new man lives. I want to walk to the water as you did, I want heaven to open a window and the angels stop singing as they did for you. I want the father to say this is my child in whom I am well pleased. I ask the question what does it take to be born again? To be born of the spirit and tried in the fire. I desire to be born again and to be a new creation in you.

 I know why only the fire born understands blue, it is the hottest part of the flame. We dance around the yellow and the reds of the fire, but it’s not until you have been truly burned by the blue that you understand  what it is to survive. I understand fire very well, I know the pain that gets along with each flame. When we put out one flame another one seems to reappear in its place. Only the Father can quench the flames of the fire that burns within. It is after we have been processed by the heat and in our darkest moment that He can use us.

 We are whatever is left after the ashes are gone. When you  take me to the water I will be revived.  I will be reborn. The hardest part of being born is exiting the birth canal. The pressure of being pushed out of my comfort zone, out of darkness and into the light. There is light at the end of the tunnel. No matter what is going on in our life – there is light.  It takes making it  through and enduring the attacks of the enemy, or attacks on one’s self to know that there is something else.

 I ask myself , how does one be born again?  Can I reenter my mother’s womb?  I know that is impossible. I can enter back into a place that I knew very well. A space where my spirit knew the feeling of my creator. A safe haven before  my spirit choose this earthly tent. A place of peace, warmth and calmness. I yearn to be born again to see you as I exit your womb. So father take me to the water, wash away my sins make me whole again. Tell me that I am wonderfully and fearfully made and tell me that I am your own. I want to enter into the rivers of your heart.

 Let me not thirst again. Let me not yield to my sinful life. I am the woman at the well, please quench my thirst. Don’t let me walk around thirsty for the drink of life. Fill my body with your spirit make me whole again. Make me one again with you. I want to be baptized in the spirit. I want to begin again. I want a new life, one that includes you and not excludes you. I want to be born again. I desire to be saved. I want the wholeness I once felt in your presence. I don’t want to look for someone else to complete me when only you can. I want you and only you. If it means a lifetime isolated from everyone I know, that’s okay. I want to live in new wine skin, and no longer in the old.

 I desire to be born again, will you help me? Will you show me the way? What does it profit a man to gain the whole world but lose his soul. I don’t want to lose my soul.  I never want to be in utter darkness separated from you. It is you that I need; you that I crave.  It is your arms I long to be in. Father hold me and tell me it’s okay, tell me you love me. Please open the door that has always been there. Please let me in. I want to be with you. I want to live with you. Save me from myself. Please.

 I am born again and I have been made whole again. I will be one with you. I am not lost because I have been found in you. You have helped  me enter into the gate that is narrow. Lord I am standing before you  in need of saving. You reached down from heaven and saved me. I have become one with you, my sins have been washed clean.  I have been to the river and made whole.