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THE FALL!!!!The fall  by~ Valrelyn Parson  2018 March 3

The Fall Before the Call

Every calling carries both light and shadow. Behind the pulpit, beneath the robes, there are men wrestling with the same temptations they preach against. The Fall Before the Call is a reflection on how pride, lust, and spiritual blindness can destroy the anointed — and how only repentance can restore what arrogance has stolen. This isn’t just about fallen preachers; it’s a wake-up call for anyone who has ever mistaken the gift for the Giver, or the calling for the Caller.

“Pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall.” — Proverbs 16:18

The Allure of the Anointing

The anointing attracts them.

The moment they discover that I am a pastor, women flock.

There’s something about a man of God that intrigues them — as if they desire me to save them.

But only God can save.

Lucifer was beautiful too, God’s most anointed cherub. He knew the scriptures, carried glory — yet pride consumed him.

Women often say they fantasize about being a pastor’s wife. I smile, knowing the hook has been set. They’ve stepped through a doorway that can lead to heartbreak.

Why do women chase men of God as if the man himself were divine?

We are not your saviors.

Yet some of us play the part.

And when we do — the fall begins.

The Fall of a Great Man

People imagine that a great fall comes from one big sin.

But often, it’s the small things — the unchecked thoughts, the subtle pride, the moments of compromise — that begin the crumble.

A fall shakes a man. It awakens him. It forces him to see what he refused to face.

But when lust consumes the spirit, when the heart becomes reprobate, sight fades.

A man begins to move by flesh, not by faith.

“What happens when a great man falls? So much potential, wasted — unless redemption finds him.”

But what if he no longer sees the light?

Will he remain lost forever?

The Counterfeit Spirit

A great shaking occurs, yet he does not discern it.

The spirit that moves within him masquerades as holy — but it is not the Holy Spirit.

It is deception dressed in glory.

He once had the anointing of David and the wisdom of Solomon.

But like Samson, he laid his head in Delilah’s lap, and she knew his secret.

He wanted love but sought it in flesh.

He wanted healing but chased validation.

He became double-minded — one moment preaching holiness, the next entertaining darkness.

He accused others of pimping the pulpit for profit, yet he pimped it for flesh.

The Cycle of Exploitation

Some preachers have made a habit of preying on women — not ministering to them, but manipulating them.

They seek women who are broken, fragile, or lost.

And if she isn’t broken, she will be when they are done.

They use God’s name to seduce and control.

They speak smooth words wrapped in scripture, mixing charm with charisma.

“The women believe they have found the man God sent — when in truth, the enemy sent him to distract and destroy.”

Like serpents, they constrict.

They squeeze the life out of a woman’s spirit, leaving behind a hollow shell — a woman who once believed in love, now questioning God Himself.

The Mirror of Judgment

You once played God — quoting scriptures, impressing crowds, but knowing no true intimacy with the One you preached.

It’s easy to point fingers at fallen ministers and call out their sins.

But the same spirit you condemn lives within you.

You use your anointing to lure.

You know the Word but not the heart of the Word.

You’ve mastered performance but forgotten presence.

You are angry — at your father, your mother, your past — and your bitterness has become your gospel.

You’ve studied women’s weaknesses more than you’ve studied God’s mercy.

You’ve turned the pulpit into a stage, and your sermons into snares.

The Weight of Truth

You say you seek a woman as anointed as yourself, but the truth is you seek someone to mirror your brokenness.

You claim to be waiting on God’s confirmation, but God does not confirm deception.

You are like an anaconda — silent, patient, constricting until she can no longer breathe.

Then you swallow her whole.

What remains is a broken vessel, robbed of worth and calling.

You hide behind holiness but are not healed.

You can’t minister deliverance while bound yourself.

You can’t lead others to salvation when your own soul wanders in darkness.

A Call to Repentance

God still sees you.

He saw David fall, yet He restored him.

He saw Peter deny Him, yet He built the Church upon him.

Your story doesn’t have to end in shame.

The same God who anointed you can still cleanse you.

“Before the call can be restored, the pride must die.”

Before the anointing can flow again, repentance must come.

You were never meant to play God.

You were called to reveal Him.

And so the fall, painful as it may be, becomes the very thing that saves you —

the fall before the call.

A Final Reflection

Some falls aren’t meant to destroy you — they’re meant to awaken you.

If you’ve ever stumbled under the weight of your own calling, remember: grace doesn’t discard you, it rebuilds you.

The greatest testimonies often rise from the rubble of broken pride.

David fell, Peter denied, Samson lost his strength — yet God still used them.

The same God who anointed you is the same God who restores you.

Before the call, there is always a breaking.

Before the ministry, there is always a moment of surrender.

And sometimes, before the rise — there must be a fall.

Take a moment to reflect:

• Have you ever mistaken your gift for your identity?
• Has God ever allowed a fall to realign your faith?