By Valrelyn Parson
The introduction of Gods promises
There is a prelude to the promises to come, and it begins with preparing oneself for the promise. It’s more than praying for the perfect mate. It’s about fully committing yourself to God, for He is your perfect mate. He is the lover we’ve never imagined, the husband or wife of our dreams. But it begins with submitting ourselves wholeheartedly to Him. And His perfect will for our lives. As we look to the future, we need to embrace the romance that is in front of us – our love for our Heavenly Father.
The Prelude ….
I am a mystery, My presence captivates you. You surely ought to know I am different. I AM many things to many people, depending on who you ask. I AM free like the stallion too wild to be tamed. I can’t be captured I can’t be controlled I AM free. I can be alluring, MY very essence alone makes men wonder. I know you far better than you know yourself.
The way I love you is all consuming. When you open your eyes, you will see more and greater possibilities. Does your new view give you more hope, are you more optimistic about the future? Sometimes, a shift in ones prospective can make you realize what you’ve missed. Maybe it’s not gone after all, maybe it’s still there, but you just can’t conceive it at this moment. Close your eyes, imagine a love that is not separated by death. A love where risking it all means giving your all – but also means getting more than you ever imagined in return.
It feels like you’ve waited a lifetime for a love like this, when you heard MY voice, your spirit came alive. What you are feeling is something you’ve never felt before. It’s the love you’ve waited for and dreamt of. Only to be let down by the illusion of someone or something pretending to be ME. Here I am at this moment, only the two of us alone. A moment in time we’ve both yearned for and prepared for.
A love without limitations, giving your all and being willing to lose all. Being able to let go all that keeps you bound to people, places and life experiences. You have to humble yourself, and go hungry in the wilderness in order to reach the promise land. It’s hard letting go, and forgetting everyone and everything that is dear to you. But what if I told you that this love is like no other. That when your lover whispers your name, there will be chills that run down the spine of your back. When you look into his eyes you will see heaven, and everything you’ve ever done wrong will be forgotten. Your past will be no more.
I am the beginning of the promise, it begins with ME. You see the promise has always been there, but you have to love ME more than you desire it. I want you to love ME fiercely and passionately. I deserve your praise and your undying commitment. And when you have completely surrendered to ME then the promise shall be fulfilled. MY Word does not come back void – but will accomplish what I sent it to do.
The Promise …
By Valrelyn Parson
I know you’ve gone tired of waiting, hoping for the promise to come. You’ve grown too impatient and you question, I am not living within his will. You often feel the need to assist ME in something you have no control over. It’s about timing, MY timing is different than yours. What appears to be a hundred years to you is only a mere second to ME. You keep waiting with anticipation and grasping at straws. But you have to completely surrender to your will to ME. Beloved, everything will fall into place, even though there are still promises unfulfilled. Stop questioning why and just surrender. Believe in the vision I have shown you of what is to come.
MY child, it seems as if MY making you wait has made you wonder how much you can endure. The promises I have for you are much more than you can fathom. You think that I have forgotten all that I have told you. And you have grown impatient and are in anguish waiting. And as I said, I know You feel as if you need to assist ME and help ME with MY promises.
You feel as if you’ve been barren for a long time and you wonder when you will give birth to what is promised. But MY timing is not like yours. A year is a fraction of a second with ME. I know that you have grown weary and you are tempted to take things into your own hands. But do not be like Abraham and Sarah and laugh at what is to come or grow weary waiting.
I promised you a love of the future, and I have not forgotten. I know you think that I have – but I have not forgotten. I am true to MY word and, it will not return void. But you must wait. I am creating someone – a love for you that is not ordinary , but one that will be exceptional. If you closed your eyes you could never imagine how special it will be.
Don’t grow weary MY child in waiting; it is hard waiting on things. But look how long the elephant is pregnant. She carries her child for almost 2 years – 700 days! She doesn’t get impatient during the wait because she knows the promise will come at the end of all her suffering – that through all her pain – it will come. It took the Israelites 40 years to realize they were just moments away from the promise land. But they suffered for 40 years because of their unwillingness to submit.
Your season is in the horizon, your field has grown white it is ready to be harvest. But you will need the tools of the trade to reap the harvest. I need you to be patient and to not give up in this season of reaping and sowing. You planted seed years ago and I listen, you watered it with your prayers and your tears. You have kept the weeds of doubt away, but it wasn’t always easy.
Beloved, close your eyes while I tell you of the love of your future. It will come not as you have imagined, not in the traditional sense, because you are not a traditional child. His spirit will be one with yours, your spirit is like that of the Aurora Borealis – it is on fire for ME. And together you will become One to serve ME. You will be his helpmate, and walk beside him. You both have been broken but together you will complete one another and become whole as One. I will need you to trust ME and not allow doubt to enter into your heart. You may say to ME, “God, you have got to be kidding, this is not what I asked for, this is not what I prayed for!” – but I tell you, yes it is. Your head didn’t know what your heart and spirit knew. So just trust in ME, because I have created for you the love of a lifetime.
You look at the eagles and you are amazed at their commitment to one another. Yours will be like that. The storms in your life have made you afraid of some things, even something good. It is the pain in your past life that makes you question and have doubt.
I need you to trust in ME and believe in ME and have faith that all I have said to you is not in vain. And above all, remember that MY Word does not come back void. I know you will be scared; you will want to run because it’s so much easier to run than to stay. But I did not give you a spirit of fear – but one of power, and love, and a sound mind. The spirit of fear is not of me. I need you to stand still and know that I AM God and what I say will come will come to pass.
The love of the future will be a consuming love, you will love him with passion and with fire. You have been in darkness, but now you are in the light. I have kept you hidden from him for such a time as this. You will be MY love letter to him. MY version of the church, and he will love you in spirit and in truth. This will be a love without limitations, giving your all to one another, and to ME – and together you will glorify ME with this love.
You will know him by his voice, because you have heard it before. It will be a reminder of a time that you were closest to ME and walking in MY perfect will for your life. It will bring chills down your spine, it will make you second guess yourself. You will question yourself and wonder, “Is this the one?”. You will ask ME, “Is this the one You have promised me?”. I will take you back in time and show you what you’ve prayed for. We will revisit every prayer and every dream. The answers lie there. I have shown you him in your many visions. But you couldn’t see him because I kept his face hidden. I wanted you to know him by his spirit. The steps of a good man are ordered by ME. He will delight in his way. My words will be in his heart. His steps are filled with MY HOLY SPIRIT. He does not become a good man by his own goodness, because that is like filthy rags. He has become good because of he has received ME as his LORD and Savior.
I need you to open your eyes MY child and look at all the possibilities. Look at everything I have told you during this time. I need you to trust in ME with all your heart. And to acknowledge ME in all areas of our life. You will be tempted to listen to others and seek their advice. But lean not to your own understanding or that of others. Seek ME and only ME for answers. I know the journey has been long and I know you have grown tired. You will hear the words ‘wait for me’, as I have waited for you. The end is near. Don’t be afraid because it is a new day. It is filled with so much promise and hope. You’ve come a long way during this journey to cross over into the promise land. I am with you to the end. I AM with you in this relationship because it has been ordained by ME.
The Vow …
By Valrelyn Parson
This day has been crafted in time and space unknown to man. I hear the music playing, I am scared because I am a girl used to running. With that being said, I think God laughed when he gave me you. I see you there in the light and the tears of joy that are in my eyes, are proof of the joy in my heart. There is so much praise in my heart for God. He listened, He heard my prayers. And above all – He gave me the desires of my heart. Someone who would wait for me, who would love me.
I can’t stop trembling, I can’t control the tears, but they are all about joy, unspeakable joy. He is faithful in his promises. He told me to be patient and wait. God knows I grew weary, and while waiting sometimes grew angry with Him. It seems as if everyone around me had met the one – their Boaz. I questioned Him, I got angry with Him , but I never turned my back even though I was tempted – or maybe it was just my anger and heartache – my flesh. God knows I made so many bad choices and that I didn’t think I was worthy of being loved. And in the midst of throwing in the towel, you came. And with you, there came a peace I had never known – a joy beyond words. My knees are shaking because even though I know I am worthy, I feel as if I am not.
Here we are two people, once broken but now whole because of His love for us and our love for one another. I like this view from the door, I like watching you wait for me as I have waited for you in my heart. I have waited to become one with you for what seems like and eternity. I heard many vows throughout my life and I’ve listened to them all. But the question remains, “How does one know, I mean truly know?”. It’s in your vows, it’s the words you speak. Not words of others, the one’s that are written in your heart, God’s Words – the only one’s that don’t return void. Each word spoken has a deep meaning and will impact our lives forever. I know without a shadow of a doubt that I want to be with you. Until death do us part, and all the times in between – I want to be there.
There is only you , the candles light the path too you, His presence surrounds us, His glory is upon us. I feel the presence of His love in the atmosphere. Here we are, you and I. I am through running.. In my mind, I remember what this covenant and these vows mean – we are together forever, for a lifetime. God, I am scared, but I can’t run, I won’t run. It’s been you its, always been you. Throughout time it’s been you who I’ve waited for, who I’ve seen in my dreams. It’s been you, no one else.
Do you know there were so many times I gave up on finding you, I had so much time in the wilderness. There were giants along the way. But even though my heart and head gave up – my spirit did not. It refused to give up. I wanted to give up on love completely because I thought it would never come, that it would never happen for me. I gave up praying and I gave up wishing and even hoping you would come. There were so many who pretended to be you, and they left me with so much hurt and so much pain that I thought, “I give up, I can’t continue to put my heart out there and not have love!”.
Then His voice whispered to my soul and said, “Not yet my child, don’t give up on what is to come. For what I have prepared for you is far more than you could imagine!”. Funny, because I’ve imagined a lot of things. But not you, because you don’t fit that description that my mind told me you were supposed too. So as I walk to you with my vows in my heart and in my head, I am ready.
You are the promise I prayed for, the one I waited for. You are the hope that gets me through each day. My life begins today with you – for I was created to help you, to be your help mate. Today we become as one – one spirit, one soul, one complete person. You are a breath of revelations of Gods love for me. I look at you and I see God, I see His love for me. He crafted you for me. I feel as if I can breathe , and inhale your spirit. I want to take you in. I promise to love you even when I don’t like you. I promise to be your friend and your lover. I promise to be the protector of your heart. I promise not to hurt you but to protect you. When I am angry I promise to talk to you and not withdraw. You see, I have this funny way of running and withdrawing , but with you I cant. I can’t run anymore. You know my soul and I know you don’t judge me. You accept me as the person I am and the person I aspire to be. I give you my heart and my soul – the two most precious things I own and will use to protect the walls of your heart. I see all that you are and all that you are meant to be. This day, this time in front of God – I am marrying my best friend – the one God has chosen for me.
The Wedding Night …
By Valrelyn, Parson
I am your gift from God, and this night has been foretold in the heavens. I’m a little afraid because, as any good wife, I want to please my husband. You see, I’ve had lovers in the past and there are regrets that come along with not waiting for the right one. Maybe there is even a little guilt because this is a special night, a magical night. And one of my most precious gifts I gave away to someone else. For God made sex to be His wedding gift to us. But my heart and soul I give to you.
I roll over and next to me is this man. I never imagined it could be like this. It’s beyond my wildest dreams. I’ve heard other women talk, but it’s nothing in comparison to this. This moment with you, this time, the way you hold me and caress me. It would have been worth the wait. I felt like we were two wild horses, who had been captured and are now set free. The fire and the intensity of it all is what every woman wants. It’s what she desires of her body; to be one with her husband. I pull my garment off, your body is wet with sweat and hot with fever. But the dew from my body will cover you and cool you. I close my eyes, I feel your lips upon my skin, against my lips. Your hands are all over me. I am your temple, your altar, your shelter, your home. My body is yours to praise.
You see my body as flawless, I am no longer ashamed of being naked and exposed. You massage my body with oil, you pull me to you hastily, upon his bed I sought the one whom my soul loves. When we make love, my body is your garden to eat from.
There are traces of your scent all over me. I’ve experienced things I never thought I would before. He completes me, he satisfies me. When we make love I don’t know where you begin or where I end. Your body encompasses my body. We are one complete spirit all though we are two individuals. We share one soul, one heart beat. We are one – just as God had promised it would be in our marriage bed.
I feel so uninhabited, so free, so carefree. The things that happen within the walls of our temple aren’t like anything I’ve ever known. The way you worship me, and praise me, I can’t explain. It’s a freedom, there are no limitations, nothing is off limit. My body is yours completely. I’ve exploded, the woman hidden within me, has been set free by her husband. I wasn’t a complete woman until our wedding night. Then I became complete. There is an intimacy that goes beyond words and beyond making love. It’s a spiritual connection. When two in flesh truly become one in spirit. For if there is to be real love between you and I, there first had to be a spiritual relationship before there was a physical one. We are now one flesh, one spirit, one soul – in Gods eyes.
There are no limitations, nothing is off limits with the one you love, the one you prayed for, the one you hoped for. For he is the promise, he is God’s revelation of love for you. I listened to women in the past, complain or make faces when it comes to intimacy. But true intimacy begins with the Father, then with yourself, and then with your husband. The marriage bed – our bed – is undefiled! And there is nothing immoral or dirty about it. It is where I worship my husband in spirit and in truth. He is my Ephesians 5 husband, and he loves me as Christ loves the church. He submits to me as I to him. I am a testimony of God’s love to my man.
I turn over, I savor this moment in time, the ceremony is over, we have fulfilled our covenant, our promises to God and to one another. I feel complete. I feel whole at this moment. If there was any remorse or regrets there aren’t any now. Because when you find the one, truly find the one that God has for you – without reservation or hesitation – you leap. On this night while as I watch you breathe, I whisper under my breathe and I thank God, for you.