02, JANUARY 2015 BY N8TIVE GIRL
I’ve been robbed! A thief has entered my house and he has taken my most prize possession. It’s un-replaceable, instantly it’s gone and I can’t get it back – even if I tried. I didn’t realize its value, but now that I do – I want it back. I was enticed, captivated by the fantasy he presented, and the temporary enjoyment that came with it. I thought it would last forever, but it didn’t. Once it the thief had it, her ran away with it. Dear God – I want it back, how can I fix it?
He stole the gift I was to give my husband, and my dream of wearing white on my wedding day. How can I now – when the meaning has been lost? My virtue was my precious gift, and now it has been stolen. Father, tell me how does one go back in time? How can I recapture what was taken, what was stolen? I didn’t see its value. I didn’t know its worth. But now that I do and understand its value, it’s gone. Forever to be lost for a moment of lust.
I was subdued in a moment of passion. I imagined his lips kissing me and his hands caressing me. I imagined my first time as this magical event – gentle kisses, and soft caresses. I envisioned loving making in its most tender form. But it wasn’t. There was passion, but no love. One night, one kiss – that seemed so innocent – yet it cost so much. I didn’t recognize my worth, my value. You hear all these stories about waiting, but you don’t understand why. No one really tells you why, they just don’t say. Then, there is the pressure of fitting in and belonging. My body said yes – but my spirit, my heart – said no. But he said don’t listen, don’t be a fool. I promise you, it will be forever, I promise. But it only was for the moment.
I got so caught up in a moment of passion. And it cost me everything. I was a virtuous woman – God says I am worth more than rubies or diamonds. My virginity was my gift to be given to my husband – and only him. It was a valued gift that I was to protect and offer to only my husband on our wedding night. I didn’t understand the importance of waiting. My flesh was weak, and now I’m left with a hole in my soul. But there is hope – that My Heavenly Father will forgive me and restore my wedding night and make it as special as it was planned to be.
I realize that the thief comes to steal, kill and destroy – My Fathers dream for my life. His dream as been within me all my life. My father told me how beautiful and wonderfully made that I am. He showed me a vision of my future. And yet, though the thief convinced me to throw my gift away – my life still has immeasurable value. HIS love offers restoration and builds up those of us who feel hopeless and are broken because we didn’t wait. He said He would restore what was lost. I just had to believe in Him, trust in Him. My virginity has been restored because I have become a new creation in Christ.
Our Heavenly Fathers dream isn’t about punishment, or forcing you to wait . It’s about sharing His most precious gift called love, and sex outside of marriage isn’t about love – it’s about lust.
We were made to be a special mans gift – his most prize possession. Sometimes life sends someone with smooth words to tempt you to tell you that you’re pretty. Don’t follow that path – it leads to death and destruction. Listen to the one person who your spirit knows it was created to love. Wait for the Father to present you to – your Adam . A good woman is hard to find, and her worth far more than diamonds. Her husband’s heart trusts safely in her – without reserve, and never has reason to regret it. Never spiteful, she treats him generously all the days of her life! The value of a virtuous woman is far more than any precious stone – for she is the Proverbs 31 wife. And she is awaiting her Ephesians 5 husband who is prepared and eager to present her spotless and pure, holy without blemish to her Lord. You are his very flesh, and he is yours – the two of you literally shall become One.