N8tivegirl

Becoming: Patient With Myself

(Healing Isn’t Linear—and That’s Okay)

Healing isn’t linear—and it’s okay.

That’s one of the hardest truths to accept.

Recovering from grief or trauma is not straightforward.

It isn’t predictable.

And it certainly isn’t neat.

Some days you feel strong.

Other days, the smallest thing can undo you.

A photograph.

A smell.

A song.

Even a piece of clothing.

Suddenly you’re right back in the moment you thought you had moved past.

Grief can send you into a tailspin without warning.

And in those moments, you question everything.

You ask why.

You may even feel angry with God.

And trauma—trauma carries its own questions.

If you survived an accident, abuse, or rape, you may look in the mirror and ask,

Why me?

What did I do wrong?

Why did I live when others didn’t?

Sometimes survival itself feels heavy.

Like a burden instead of a blessing.

You may feel anger toward your own reflection—

not realizing the story was never just about you.

Your story is bigger than your pain.

What you endured—

as unbearable as it was—

is not the end of the narrative.

The very thing that could have taken you out

is becoming your greatest testimony.

You survived because God carried you through.

Even when you didn’t feel Him.

Even when you questioned Him.

Even when you were angry.

Becoming patient with yourself means allowing the process.

It means giving yourself grace on the hard days.

It means understanding that healing happens in layers, not lines.

And one day—

your story will help someone else breathe again.

I am becoming patient with myself.

Still becoming.

Reflection Question 

Where do I need to offer myself more grace in my healing journey?